by ekie
I feel as if I’ve been a remiss member of this blog. It’s not that I’ve been neglecting it, just that I keep starting entries and not thinking that they’re good enough, or disability-related enough, to be posted, so I don’t. So today, here’s a mostly-non-disability related update.
1. Work on the living room (see last entry re: stupid roofers) continues. I am being absolutely of no help to anyone because I think all shades of beige and white are the same and would just as soon buy the really cheap carpet. My decorating tastes run to flowered wallpaper and farm animal borders. I like bathrooms with mermaid or fish themes. Unfortunately, my mother wants to sell this house in a year or two, and potential buyers are not so interested in those things. Also, on the advice of a realtor, half the curtains in the house are coming down and being replaced by roman shades or weird fake-wood panel things. I miss the curtains. The house misses the curtains. I think the house feels naked. If it had arms, it would be trying to cover up its’ poor, naked windows.
2. I am going through a real period of soul-searching regarding myself and my diagnosis. I finally tried the local Aspergers association, and I mean really tried, not just one meeting, and to my surprise am making good connections and possibly even friends there. This particular Aspergers Association sees NLD as a sub-type of Aspergers, indistinguishable from it, and the more I learn about Aspergers, the more I see how my own prejudices against autism were preventing me from accessing some great resources and meeting great people. The stigma of autism prevents the NLD community from joining the Aspergers folks, but that’s a shame, because the Aspergers folks are a lot better connected and do a much better job of taking care of their people than the national NLD organization does. I feel that I have finally found a place where not only do I fit in, I’m valued, and my opinons are valued. Best of all, the women are just as outspoken as I am.
3. No job nor job prospects yet - ugh. This is really getting me down. I am picking up some work with an absolutely adorable 5 year old with special needs and maybe some more babysitting, but I’m really getting soured on going to interviews and trying my hardest, and not having people ever bother to call me back - even when I call them and ask them just for feedback on the interview process when I didn’t get a job.
4. It’s summer, though, so if I have to be living at home, at least it can be in this gorgeous weather, with the lake nearby and our first beach trip coming up, and huge broiling thunderstorms soaking my vegetables. So far I have produced a half-dozen tiny green tomatoes, some quite decent spinach and three vigorous squash plants with no squahes as well as a dozen gladiolis with no flowers. My lupines, zinnias and snapdragons from seed all failed. My sweet peas from seed came up great but no flowers. I know miracle-grow is terrible for the environment but I found a packet of it that we bought some other year and, since it is already bought and cannot be returned, think I should put it on my vegetables because, you know, it really works.
5. I need the mason, who was due twenty minutes ago, to come now, so I can take my walk and then go out shoe shopping, again. I have been shoe shopping for a week with no success. Why is it so hard to find totally flat, not totally ugly sandals? I can’t wear heels due to my motor problems - any sort of heel even a half-inch one. I found the *perfect* pair online but apparently my size does not exist. Stupid feet.
Also, I’ve noticed that whenever I post, it says that it’s tomorrow. For the record, right now, it is today, nine minutes to eleven on Tuesday, not near 3 pm on Wednesday. I guess that is Australian time? Weird.