by ekie
I haven’t written in a long time, and it’s not because I’m particularly busy….. just particularly paranoid about whether or not the web is truly as anonymous as I hope it is.
Also, I’ve been cold.
I know, I know, it’s only January, still 2-plus months of winter to go, but I want it to end. Preferably, now. We get about a foot of snow a week and although there is something very, very awesome about standing in the middle of the pond and looking out, instead of standing on the outside looking in, I’d really prefer it to be warm enough to go swimming in said pond. I also know that there are places in the midwest where it never gets above zero F. lately and I’m lucky to live where our average temperature is in the twenties. And to have food and a warm bed and a warm house and a warm car to take myself places in. But at the end of the day, I’m still cold. And I’m still tired.
No job yet. Few interviews. In this economy, everyone’s looking for a job, and who would hire me when they could have anyone else? In the interim, am spending time with Molly, age 9.5, and Cracker and the Bean, age 3.5 and 1, who deserve a whole separate post devoted entirely to their adorableness. Too bad a social life with toddlers doesn’t count as one at all.
I’m cold, and I’m tired. Tired of the same routines, the same bleak midwinter, the same boring weekends sitting in the house alone. All those big and little annoyances, adding up. I can’t make friends, I can’t find a job, I can’t make decent pasta and I can’t find my library card. I’m annoyed at a world that is so unaccomodating in general, at a new administration that had so much promise yet had an incredibly inaccessible inauguration, at a tv show that had a really good character with Aspergers and proceeded to make him into a serial killer/cannibal.*
Anybody want to give me a plane ticket to Australia? I could really use a long time on a beach……
*The show was Bones, the Aspie was called Zach, and it was really good until Emily Deschanel’s character decided to ignore the basic premises of the show and turn it into another law-and-order/soap opera spinoff.
3 Comments
23 January, 2009 at 4:43 pm
You are fabulous. I came online tonight just to see if you’d (maybe, just maybe) posted something. I’m so glad that you did. I urge you, write a book so I can buy it. It could be about anything. Write about your disdain for the cold or your love of children or your genuine, burning passion for equal rights. Write about nothing; it would still be lovely. Be apathetic, charming, or sarcastic. Your choice. Write about you. You are wonderful. It’s been so long since I read anything so well-written and so worth reading. Thank you.
I am also through with winter. Where should I send my petition? My vote is for summer. Then again, where I live summer is not really a far cry from spring or fall. They all blend together here. Winter, though … it is the annual thorn in my side.
28 January, 2009 at 3:54 am
As a fellow New Englander, I agree it’s cold. And I’m tired of the cold as well. Today I looked at my hands and they were an unsightly shade of blue and said to myself, “this is so not normal, when’s it going to be warm again?”
hope you make it through the next cold snap and foot of snow without mishap.
2 February, 2009 at 10:08 pm
Come to Australia Ekie – but pick your location. It’s summer here and some states have been enduring 40 – 45 degrees Celsius … I hope the Spring thaw also melts away the difficult issues you are dealing with. But don’t stop writing.